Hi. Today I can fell the earth moving on my feet. I missed you so much. I cannot think of a day you are not in my thoughts and you are so inside of me that sometimes I ask myself if I am seriously mad about you .... because you know anything, you dont even know that I exist, but deep in your mind I know that my memory last or that's what I want to think.

I am not sure why I have gotten myself in such a situation. I am not a bad person at all. I love my family with all my heart, but you are always there like a shadow and I really need to let you go. I want to move on. 

Today, it is the 50th aniversary of edith piaf's death and as she said "non je ne regrette rien" I have decided to have my own family, to love another man and to be happy with a "normal" life. I wanted desperatly to get out of my parents' house. I had a nightmare there, you know that. So why didn't you search for me? why didn't you stay with me? why did you let me go? I coudn't wait for you any longer.

Today, I want to get rid of you, I want to get you out of my system, and if you are by any chance reading this, you have to know that I regret having promised to be with you forever because until today I have kept my words, because you have been present in my actions, in my thoughts in my breathing.