Hi. Today I can fell the earth moving on my feet. I missed you so much. I cannot think of a day you are not in my thoughts and you are so inside of me that sometimes I ask myself if I am seriously mad about you .... because you know anything, you dont even know that I exist, but deep in your mind I know that my memory last or that's what I want to think.

I am not sure why I have gotten myself in such a situation. I am not a bad person at all. I love my family with all my heart, but you are always there like a shadow and I really need to let you go. I want to move on. 

Today, it is the 50th aniversary of edith piaf's death and as she said "non je ne regrette rien" I have decided to have my own family, to love another man and to be happy with a "normal" life. I wanted desperatly to get out of my parents' house. I had a nightmare there, you know that. So why didn't you search for me? why didn't you stay with me? why did you let me go? I coudn't wait for you any longer.

Today, I want to get rid of you, I want to get you out of my system, and if you are by any chance reading this, you have to know that I regret having promised to be with you forever because until today I have kept my words, because you have been present in my actions, in my thoughts in my breathing. 

catching up ... "Long time no see" : THE WARNING

I've been really busy lately now that I’m a mum. Yeah, it happened so quickly I couldn’t even read all of the books I mentioned before! and to tell you the truth, this is an experience I’m not sure I want to repeat in the future. It’s not that I’m a bad mum; it’s only that I’m not used to have THIS kind of responsibility on my back.

Anyway, I’m glad to be back, but I have to warn you that I’m going to talk about motherhood a lot since is the only thing I DO now… feel free to read me or give me up…

I'm getting started !

On maternity leave

Waiting is not something I’m really fond of. On the contrary, I’m very impatient, I hate having to wait in a queue, getting stuck in traffic and so on. So, having to wait 9 months for someone is not the coolest thing I have ever expected, but life works in mysterious ways and I have decided I’m going to make the most with my time. To begin with, I’m going to chill out with a pile of books that are waiting to be read since I have started working in the school.

Let me illustrate this from another angle. This is the list of books I’m reading during this short period:

1. Ken Follett “The Whiteout”

2. Ken Follett “ The Pillars of the Earth”

3. Cecelia Ahern “PS. I love you”

4. Ken Follett “ World Without End”

5. Hernán Rivera Letelier “La contadora de películas” “ The movie teller”

As you can see, one of my favourite authors has been exposed: Ken Follett.

I hope you can find him interesting too.

See you in a few days with my first report.

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